Friday, June 23, 2006
i miss paul. i miss him sososo much.
he's cute, and hot.
that sweaty, hot bootyomg i dont know how to describe what exactly im feeling. i'm lost with words.
heart aches, heart pounds, overwhelmed with emotions.
i havent been feeling this way for a very long time.
-sighs.
well i'll get over him soon. he's not interested, so whats the point.
but now i'm still quite upset, argh i dont know what to do now. everytime i think of the things we did tgt, my heart will start beating really fast, and for god-knows-what reason i'll start to tear. BUT in the end i managed to control my emotions.
-stares.
im so screwed.
ah wth he's such a jerk.
i dont wna talk about him anymore.
ALRITES!
cat and yuhsuan pre-celebrated my birthday on wednesday. ohmy they were so nice. cat came over to my place before we head downtown. know what, SHE BOUGHT ME A SUPER HUGE SUNFLOWER AND A CUTE LIL. CHOCOLATE CAKE! ahh thanks cat! ure always so sweeeet(:
that night she slept over at my place. we reached home at 7am (we left at 8pm), and slept and know what we woke up like 3 hours later. i dont know why we slept so lil. but we just felt like waking up la. but in the end i had to take afternoon nap at like 3 cos i was so super darn sleepy. my head was rocking back and forth when doing the bio paper. gosh i wasnt concentrating at all! haha i spent my morning time chatting with a fren on the phone, telling her ALL ABOUT PAUL and HOW MUCH I'VE MISSED HIM.
ohno bev stop thinking bout himanw yea so in the end i didnt have any energy to do any work.
today i spent 9 hours doing 2 amaths paper.
you know my amaths is lousy. and i didnt like amaths at all.
thats why i left them till the end.
i was trying to avoid them, but in the end i had to face and deal with them.
yucks i really h8 amathsi have to finish
all my work by sunday 7.30pm
a must! no matter what.
flagday tmr.
finally im going meet my classmates (and laogong!)
i need to talk to them. i need someone to talk to. and thats what i always do to forget the past.
ohmy im thinking of paul again.ah i feel lonely all of a sudden.
someone please ask me out.
i think im down with fever.
darn.
i still have work to do.
hands and legs are all hothothot.
i feel so
dry.
i miss mom.
i miss frens in hk.
i want to play!
i dont want holidays to end.
i want a hug.
i want to be loved.
i want to be pampered.
i want a shoulder to cry on.
i want someone to be there for me.
what to do?